So little time...

I thought this title would be appropriate seeing that the half way point of spring quarter is today! Time has definitely flown by at 35468432164 mph. I feel like this "time flying by" issue happens every year (because it actually does!). The older you get the more responsibilities you receive, the less time you have in your life for yourself.

I also say time flies because today is also Obama's 100th day. There is still a surreal feeling about having Obama as the President, I think I am still stunned that we have our very first black male president. I was thinking how fast his first terms is going to end, with a blink of an eye the 2012 presidential elections will begin. I am definitely in awe for his confidence and achievements. Go Obama.

I am going to miss my residents. I had become very indifferent and to some extent bitter about being a RA at the end of last quarter and the beginning of this quarter. BUT, alas, reality has finally hit me in the face telling me that I have around 4 1/2 weeks left with them, for them to be at my fingertips, run around the hall at midnight, for them to yell Mama D, Delicious, Delia at all levels, etc. I'm going to miss them. Talking about our farewell Puente Banquet makes me very sad, the end of a long year is always bittersweet, but saying goodbye to what you have seen grown is tough. I always knew from Day 1 ever since I met my residents I was going to cry at the end of the year, truthfully talking about the banquet with the committee of residents brings tears to my eyes. I know this sounds sappy, but too bad it is the truth. If you know me, I'm not one to hold in my tears very well.

I learned a lot more about myself through this experience - about the different pressures I can handle, what and who really pisses me off, how I can truly affect others, and so forth. I must say without my residents, who knows how my life would have changed.

4 1/2 weeks, here we go.
Make the most of it and create the memories!
I'm excited.

RA Ladies & Gents

Ultimate MesaLOVE.

OMGOSH. This totally made my night, tears in my eyes f'sho. This meeting was a 180 degree turn. Thank you so much GUYS! I <3 RA GUYS! Thanks Eman, Curty, Walter, Andy, Patrick, Matty, Jimmy, Boggy, Kyle, Paul, Jason, Sean O., Wes, and Bryan.

I really appreciate these guys. I would not have picked any other group of RA's to experience this amazing year. Thanks again.

Bonkers

For some reason I had a lot of energy today - I was bouncing all over the walls. So, the idea of me being the Duty Coordinator and stuck in my room is a really hard notion right now. All my energy is bottled up within the two tiny confines of my room. I was thinking about how I could possibly have so much energy, and it might be because I have gotten more sleep than usual and didn't go to the ARC for 3 days or so...

So, with all this energy I resorted to some online surfing of pretty floral designs. I really love and enjoy the colors that the florist used in this pieces. It's the best of both my worlds - life filled with bright lights and colors meeting up and mingling with mother nature. There are the oranges, yellows, lime greens, and fuchsias, all so simple, yet creating something so endearing and beautiful. I love it!

Ahh.. simply b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. I hope that someday I can make someone as happy as these flowers make me with something I create. Pure bliss. Looking at these pictures to some degree takes me out of reality, now that I think about it, my entries allow me to dream about the possibilities of what I could still do with my life.

I'm actually really scared about the future for now... The future is something that is known yet unknown. People definitely have their plans about what they want their future and life to become, but we never know the specific situations we have to go through, and I think this is what scares me the most. I fear failing in life and the unknown, which may explain why I like to plan events rather than rely on spontaneity. How my life will change within the next year or two scares me because this is the time when I really have to face reality. I'm sure I'll have more entries about my future, until next time.



Adieu. <3

Livin' Life. Simply happy.

I feel that one of the distinctive traits I have is that I smile and laugh a lot. I am very loud about it, and sometimes that can be what I am known for.. :) So, for the past few entries I sound like I'm a miserable wreck in Irvine, just floating by in life, but that is seriously NOT the case. Everyone has their off days and moments; it is just convenient for me to write in my blog because it is my own little world - my own bubble, in which I do not care if people judge me or not for my own thoughts and life experiences. My blog makes me happy and smile.

Life ALWAYS has its good and and bad moment, I know it sounds cliche but it is simply the truth. Anywho..I digress. This year, I started to question whether or not I really wanted to go into the field of law. I have always had an interest in politics and law since the 11th grade, but something shifted this year. I think a lot of my friends are going through the similar situation, especially several Career Center peers. Who knew, it would be this group, all of us so motivated and driven for our different career goals to be confused a year later; this is what happens when the Career Center is no longer a constant in your life.

Moving along. Although I'm not sure if I still want to pursue a JD and actually go to law school or graduate school, I have something I am passionate about, and brings me happiness all at the same time. While online, I ran into this picture posted by photographer Jerry Yoon. I love the little details that the planner put into this event, and the use of colors. I'm not sure if it is genetic, but every since I was in high school, I have loved flowers and that passion has come back in full force this month. I say it might be genetic because for a certain period, my dad was a gardener. He loves flowers and plants in general, and I love when my dad explains to me the different types of flowers when we go to Home Depot or Lowes in his Korean accent. Oh how I love my appa. :)


Until another time. Ahn-young.
Still breathing. Thankgoodness.

Soul sucker

Hmm... seems to me that every time I write in my blog, it's either to get my frustrations out or just to update my friends in how I'm feeling, especially to the few who actually read my blog while they are away abroad.

Well. I have calmed down significantly from this event, but it is something I will never forget about one of the campus resources. My friend basically took the words right out of me - he described it simply as a "soul sucker", which I'm afraid I have to agree with... I usually like to be optimistic and give things the benefit of doubt, but today truly made me unhappy and enervated. This event made me think of the times when I was frustrated fall quarter, and just needed a friend to vent and make me breathe. It seems like as more time goes by, the more I am looking forward to finals and summer. Ah summer, can't wait.


Just breathe Del. You got this. 9 more weeks.

UGH...Frustrations

Rants, rants, and more rants.

I understand that I am an RA and what the job entails - enforcing housing policy and creating a community within my hall, but nowhere in this job description does it say take sh*t from your residents. I am truly sick and tired of hearing these freshmen whine about stupid stuff, complain, and disrespect me. I am definitely a person they can come to for information, problems, just to talk, but in no way am I going to take any of this bullshit they are feeding me.

I feel that my residents are at this state where they are so comfortable with me that they do not understand the boundaries they cross. I am not saying I am all high mighty and powerful because of the position I am in, but I am definitely not here to be offended. The whole point of college is to actually GROW UP! Seriously. I never thought of my residents are merely residents just fresh out of college. The older you get the more responsibility you acquire, I am not sure if my residents understand this concept. However, don't get me wrong, not all my residents get on my nerve, and you cannot blame me when I can truly say some residents annoy me. Honestly, they bother me, but this is the job I signed up to do - have no private life.

I am definitely only focusing on the negative aspects of my residents. This year is one year I will never forget. There were so many 'firsts' I've done with my residents, and I have gone through thick and thin. I hope I get over this phase soon, I need to get some programming done. -_-.


Adios.

Privilege, rights, wants, & needs

Growing up ever since my eighth grade winter intermission cooking class with Mrs. Bodiford and Mrs. Fitzpatrick, I started to question the difference between having certain rights and being privileged in different situations. Then came my ninth grade health class with Ms. Polk, who questioned what the our actual needs and wants in life.

These different lessons definitely have been applied to various events in my life, and I have also questioned the decisions of other people as well. As a Resident Advisor this year, and especially this week, I have tried to apply these questions to my own residents. I am not sure if people understand when they are privileged or actually have the right. For example, in my situation, freshmen residents definitely do not understand that for them, housing is a privilege that they earned, they do not have the right to receive on-campus housing from the university. -_-.

However, in my actual life, different to my life associated with housing, as an Asian American, Asians have consistently been stereotyped with their frugal ways. I am definitely not disappointed to say that I actually can be categorized under this stereotype. Besides the point, I always question what my actual needs and wants are based on how the item affects me and/or my family economically. Ode joy to saving money. :)

But, truly think about each of these words; they all are simplistic words that each of us understand and can appreciate.


Fin.